29 March 2013

Kundalini: An Invitation to Truth


Kundalini arising is an invitation,  truly a doorway, into knowing what you are, and realizing or remembering the true nature of existence.  This is why the energy is called divine.  It is the energy of the source of life that enabled you to exist as part of creation, and when it activates it is possible for consciousness to shift in such a way that it recognizes its true nature.  It shows you that you are not the thoughts in your head, and patterns in your life that you previously identified with.  

Some people have a glimpse of  the infinite, the truth that consciousness exists beyond any boundary, long before they have a kundalini arising. They are given a hint about who they are. It may change their life, or it may pass through as simply an unusual moment, never forgotten but never taken to heart. But most people seem to have the arising of this energy of the life force known as kundalini, prior to the awakening of consciousness. It supports them in becoming Self-realized.  It invites them into awareness of the infinite.

Naturally kundalini energy is frightening to the mind of many people, because it challenges our belief in the uniqueness of our own identity, and it  is beyond the understanding  and the cultural perspective of  the mind.  It feels sometimes as if you are losing your mind and your  understanding of who you are, it disrupts and reorganizes your energy field, and it may even cause physical discomfort as it moves through areas of your body that have latent physical issues or  stored emotional content. It can look and feel "weird" and if the body has experienced physical or sexual abuse, or traumatic emotional and physical events, it can cause the release of the old memories and sensations held in the contracted energy field.  So for some people this awakening is a more challenging event than for others.

You might think of kundalini awakening as a clearing process that is designed to enable an open, clear and compassionate perspective of life and death, and to feel the essential bliss and connectedness of all things. In some people it also powerfully opens the heart to love.  For these transformations to happen all the thoughts, points of view, memories and stored traumas in the body need to be released.  You cannot do this yourself.  It is done through you by the energy, in its own timing.   If you have done clearing through therapy or body work in the past this can be useful, because there is less "stuckness" in the old conditions and more acceptance of letting things go.  And usually with therapy one learns to release self-judgement, which is an important prerequisite in this process of awakening to what you really are.

Our true nature has no judgment and no resistance to life. Waking up is not an abandonment of life as it is, but an expansion, so that consciousness sees the inner-connectedness, the oneness, underneath all the diversity of expression in the world.  Without judgment there is still a responsiveness, a deep feeling can move through related to compassion for the suffering in the human condition, and action can emerge spontaneously, the form having great variations among different people. Great laughter and joy can arise in seeing clearing how we have missed the truth for so many years ,and ignored the clear evidence of our own eternal consciousness. Even in the joy we can still feel strong compassion for the confusion that all humanity shares. 

Unfortunately, not everyone who awakens kundalini will awaken to Truth.  There are many cul-de-sacs in the process caused by cultural and community biases and ignorance of the process, fear of the unknown (which one must enter without reservation at some point), the tendency to regress into self-doubt, or attachment to old patterns of being that are not released.  One needs to learn to listen to their deepest inner truth, to take care of their physical and emotional needs, to surrender completely to the energy flow,  to be willing to love unconditionally -- one is invited into many experiences the mind might resist.  Some people feel like they may be losing their sanity or even their life.   There are many fear-based stories about kundalini which sometimes amplify these doubts and fears.  And there are risks to health if one is pushing the process, continues using recreational drugs, or ignores basic health habits.  It helps to have some objective support and guidance in case you become inflated, disoriented or overwhelmed by emotional shifts. (all of which may happen for limited periods of time). It helps to have a spiritual orientation and basic self-respect and love.

Some people are concerned because their financial situation does not support them and they feel unable to work.  It is helpful if one has a lifestyle and workstyle that are compatible for their spiritual life, that sustains them through these transitional times.  If this is not available they can only seek inner wisdom to find a way through life support by using available food pantries and community dinners, volunteering  service in a meaningful way,  living in yogic communities, or returning to families for help.  In most cases if one is unable to hold their regular job, a small amount of work that feels aligned with one's true capacity is helpful.  The body/mind will benefit from some kind of focus and balance during this awakening.  This is not about abandoning the body/mind or the personal life you have been given, only giving up identification with it as "all" you are. You are still obligated to care for it.

Poverty during a kundalini process may be no worse than poverty for a myriad of other reasons.  For hundreds of  years Zen monks who sought awakening chose poverty, although they were in a community that respected this option and helped to feed them. I cannot say why one person is thrown into this situation and others are not -- some might say it was a choice from a previous life, or a piece of karma to be finished, or a teaching about a certain perspective of life, or a pattern or belief that needs to be relinquished.  It may be caused by apparent outside circumstances, (all of us can find societal reasons), or for psychological reasons, but it is your mind that attaches a  personal meaning to it.


I was once in a workshop with a nurse who reported a very traumatic childhood including early rape and pregnancy, prostitution, drug addiction and living on the streets before her world shifted  in her twenties and she was able to move into school and a career.  As I felt into the trauma of that life and youth what I saw was that she went through that so that I would not have to.  Each of us fills a spot in a massive and eternal mosaic of life experience.  There is no ultimate reason or why explaining why some have such difficulties -- it is just so.  Humanity is still in an evolutionary stage, and has not yet embraced unilateral kindness and health.  There is suffering and we all are part of it.  Waking up will only make it better.  Kundalini arising, and its  greatest gift,  a clear perception of the nature of existence and the releasing of our identification with thoughts that cause suffering will, as the Buddha said, wake up the world (a piece at a time).

If you are  truly in this process it will not let you go (although you can resist endlessly) and keep inviting you into your deepest potential for knowing Truth.

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

My process started around 13 years ago with a meditation. The energy burst through my spine and felt like my heart was going to explode. There was so much bliss at the time, I thought I might die, but I didn't care. Over the years, the process seems to make me more sensitive to others' pain, even so much so that I take on others' pain. You talk about giving up your job or living in poverty, for me, it seems like I need to live in seclusion from all others, otherwise for every energy that's cleared, I just take on more from someone else. There have been dramatic examples where someone is suffering from some longstanding pain and then in my presence the pain ends, only to begin in my physical body. I have little desire to live a life of seclusion, and even at times when I've been alone, pain still seems to find me. I do my best to trust the process, and still after 13 years I find myself frustrated and unsure if I've made any progress. I've worked with numerous grounding exercises and other techniques to "protect" myself to seemingly no benefit. If I do nothing, I still take on others' pain. *sigh*. I feel like there's some major block that needs to be cleared, but I've seen a number of healers and worked on things for years and feel oblivious to what more I can do. Maybe this is too personal for a comment to your blog. If so, I apologize.

S

Bonnie said...

Some people in this process experience the intense sensitivity you describe. I would need to know much more about your background and spiritual practices to give very specific guidance about this. Generally this is a temporary phase and as you deepen in the realization of Oneness it becomes possible to let the energy of others move through you rather than into you. It requires learning a great openness and just breathing through pain until it passes, like indigestion or the waves of an ocean. It helps to learn to be present as awareness of the full body rather than thoughts. It is thoughts usually that cause us to hold on to pain so if you can learn to disidentify with your thoughts and find a new way to look at the pain people suffer -- releasing it into the universe and accepting it as part of the human condition -- this might help. Many people feel a need to isolate for a while during this process, but this usually passes. It may help to find some ways of self-expression such as painting or singing or writing things out. If there is a block, such as a difficult childhood memory or pattern you cannot release, then you may benefit from working with a therapist.

If you want a more personal assessment I would need you to fill out a questionnaire and then we could have a consultation. You can contact me at kundinfo@mindspring.com.
A teacher who may inspire you and help you feel less alone with this process, because many who listen to him have shared similar experiences, is Adyashanti. He has videos and talks on his website and does a live internet show 2 times a month on the web, and students call him with their questions and concerns following his talk. He helps to clarify spiritual awakening for many people. You can find him at www.adyashanti.org.

mindrunfree said...

I appreciate you addressing the difficulties with maintaining work. Fifteen years ago I was a waitress in a fine dining restaurant and realized I was not capable of performing this job any longer. To the shock and confusion of the staff, I asked to be a dishwasher. I experienced an enormous cut in pay, and I could not have been happier with the decision. Dishwashing was a great meditative practice. While scrubbing those dishes, pots, and pans, I was able to reflect deeply on the beauty and simplicity that my life was capable of being. Thanks for your posts. I read them and enjoy your words.

nzveganalien said...

I feel I am going through something of a kundalini process. It's just been in the last year in fact and not sure if it sounds odd but seems to be linked with my new life as a Vegan which I've found extremely profound for me in it's impact on my life. I feel a new sense of clarity and connection I've never had before and feel like a more habitual part of me has died and now I'm somehow more me.

Over the last few months when I meditate in my room I feel jolts through me almost like electricity. I've read that this can be chakras opening or maybe past stuff clearing out. It feels good and therapeutic. I guess I'm just trying to enjoy the journey of it. I'm reading a bit about kundalini awakening too.

Annie said...

I have recently had Kundalini ascension (about 4 months ago), and I experienced immense bliss when this happened spontaneously while I was meditating. Life has not been the same ever since! I have become more aware of my Self, I am more detached from the world and I am experiencing many physiological changes in me. For a few weeks following the ascension, I found myself performing yoga postures involuntarily for hours at a stretch, only to stop when I was too tired to continue. I also found myself performing hand mudras all of a sudden for as long as half an hour or even longer. The Shakti would run up and down my spine every now and then, and would become very active when I lay down on my bed to sleep in the night. This still continues. I constantly feel a vibrating sensation within my body, which becomes stronger of its own accord at times, leading to me shaking my head. This shaking continues for minutes and minutes, and sometimes it becomes vigorous/frantic. There is also tension in my third eye region. Whenever I close my eyes to meditate, I see a red shiny circle in my third eye region and the Shakti starts moving in my body. What does this mean? What am I supposed to do or not do to facilitate this process. Thank you for your help.

Anonymous said...

That was beautiful, Bonnie. Thank you for your uplifting and gorgeous words. I also went through a period of about 1.5 years where I simply could not work. I felt this tiny intuitive reassurance that I would be okay, and sure enough, money showed up in many unexpected ways. Now I have been working fulltime for five years.

I do have a question. I once heard a woman who is a fairly well-known kundalini consultant say, "Your life is no longer about secular and sensual pleasures. It is about spiritual awareness." Do you agree with this? I realize we don't stop enjoying sex or movies or books after a kundalini rising, but do you recommend making spiritual awareness the major organizing principle of your life?

Thank you,

An old friend

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Mike Tandon said...

I have very poor knowledge regarding
all these energy of seven circle. I want help to learn more...I have experince the power 15 years back ,I know there is something which is not explainable but can be experience by oneself

Andrew Courchesne said...

Hi Bonnie, great post. I have many questions about kundalini awakening/rising. I may have had a spontaneous rising. I have written a blog post of my journey. May I give you the blog page so you can see my story?
Thank you.
AC